Sunday, May 18, 2008
sigh! wat is he trying to tell me when he text me congrat?
he trying to say congrat me for being attached? or i missed someone?
didnt he know i still miss him alot?
somehow we don seems to keep in contact anymore but my feeling for him still strong?
tigger.. my clothing still at his place.
do i really need to get back n tats de end or shall i juz leave it....
in fact i don really bother to get back everything from him.. wats past is past....
but am i silly to hold some torch for him?
nobody ever knows our r/s............. we started it of quietly n ended it quietly.....
its sad to recall but. i feel sweet when i think of it.
i do miss him lots.
but i know i can move on without him.
becos time n age never wait for u or for me.
friends keep on match make me.... im so tired.. why cant it started of juz lik friends instead.. why muz lik heh i intro u tis good guy his good...blah blah blah...
come to think of it... its e 3rd time pple wanna match make me..
im arent tat good yeah..........
im juz so bad! im a bad girl.
after all e failure in my r/s ... im scare of committing yet i wanna be love.. its such contradicting.....
i wanna be wild.. i wanna play ard when im still young... i wanna do lots of crazy things when i don dare too....
its somethings tat i really wanna try..
but yet i scare once i try... i will never turn back.
haiz i really donno wat i want... lik studies like work like r/s i really duno wat i wanted....
its u dar.. tat makes me wanna be wild yet wanna be good to get u back.
sigh! how on earth can i learn to grow up!
i alway think pple arent mature enough n i was mature enough to handle r/s thats comes....
but sometimes i felt tat im so childish....
trying hard to feel alright infront of pple.. helping them to solve their problems.. but yet i cant help myself to be strong...
but at least now im strong enoough to handle whatever comes by...
hopefully watever i do.. doesnt hurt pple feeling...i juz wanna be more active den i used to be...
learn to be more openminded...
learn to makes loot of friends.... PURELY friendship.........
juz don wann attached for the moment.. be it im waiting for him to come back or be it.. i wanna play somemore...
i'm still young i doesnt need to commit.... maybe when i grow much older n thinks beter.
haha
going to work later... at 8am.. got to wake up at 6am.. sigh busy working schedule! but more money coming in! hoorray.. bills n shopping n saving.... coming in sooon..sigh! poor little girl!
hahaha......
sayang going to pick me up later...
wooopsxx! WRX haha i love him lots!
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Don't let me go -
my gucci sunglass... didnt manage to get the piece i wanted... i also forget the design...